Lily Lily.

I'm not sure, but i sure know for certain-
they'll all fake a smile when we draw the curtain.
I'll just smile and wave,
like I'm made up of plastic.
And they'll all cheer and clap
like I'm fucking fantastic.
Arrogance flowing- out through their noses,
Poisons all painted- arranged with the roses.
And all of their colors, drip down to the middle,
it's funny how evil presents it'self so little.
there egos are flying and hormones are raging,
watch out for misfire while the gun's disengaging.
Everyone's seeing red so they run to the prozac,
But it won't help much since they're already on that.
systems shut down, and we face our reflection
people can't even tell they're in the wrong direction
don't give out your thoughts for people will steal them,
but i wonder if it counts if they can also feel them.
strangers are pissed- knocking down my front door.
i'm not going to answer, i can't even hear it- anymore.
i'll just keep on callin,
and stalling,
and stalling...
i guess i'm just not sure.

Her Paramour

the bandit with the sparkley smile-
sneaking through the night,
strong hands, and eyes that beguile,
looking for a fight.
Footsteps left leading up and up-
through dirt, and rock, and sand.
like the trail would never end.
thats where it all began.
she was shaking, hearts were racing-
but it was zero gravity from there.
so she let herself go and let her self fall,
and felt the wind rush through her hair.
felt that feeling in her stomach, that sickly tumble of butterflies.
she felt her chest beat louder,
for once-
she felt alive.
a perfect puzzle formed on the edge of his arms ending with his fingertips,
that she was a part of,
and she'd give her heart up,
to forever just- do this.
it's true, she had fallen hard into a trap of his,
but at the same time tangled herself up in a more dangerous web of her own.
and she wanted nothing more than to stay there,
and to make his heart her home.
but the clocks ticked,
and their watches chimed,
and the earth shook real slow.
slow enough for love.
fast enough to not be able to let it go.
early one day she sat where he slept,
with a heavy heart, unable to even think.
she kissed his cheek and scrawled down
her words to him in black ink.
and in that moment she signed away her soul,
she gave him all of her,
and gave him all control. ..
the connection they have is so beautiful,
the closest thing i've ever seen to perfection,
a perfection she's never before believed in,
but he-
is her only exception.

When..

when you can feel each others heartbeat-
from miles and miles away,
when you can talk and talk forever-
without having anything to say,
when you can't stand one moment-
of being angry or mad,
when you hurt as well,
when they feel sad,
when being together-
just makes sense.
and lonely Saturdays-
are all past tense,
when you know just whats-
going on inside their head,
when you are with someone else-
you wish it was them instead,
when you tell them everything-
even of what your ashamed,
you have a million inside jokes,
a million nicknames.
so many memories-
to many to count,
every picture a story, or how that day went,
every weekend- and adventure,
oh how it could be spent,
when you have it all and more,
and then others just pretent,
you know you've found them,
and you love them,
they're forever.
bestfriend.

Just Love.

just love.
love often.
love crazy.
love passionatley.
love many.
love hard.
love soft.
love gently.
love constantly.
love all.
love everything.
love everything.
love with everything.
love warmly.
love sweetly.
love like music.
love like water.
love like chocolate.
love with all you have.
love with all you are.
love your neighbor.
love your mother.
love yourself.
love loving.
love more.
just love.

1005

you destroy me,
you create me.
tanatalize and intoxicate me.
purge me of my fear and sorrow,
love me today,
still love me tomorw.
i'll hold my breath and jump under-
underneath the ice.
it terrifies me to let go like this,
but there isn't really much time to think twice.
stop my shivers.
stop my fear.
keep me grounded.
pull me near.
i may lack the approval seal but
you can't shy away from whats real,
you can't ignore it, you can't fight it,
you cant deny how you feel.
this is it.
and i've cashed it all in.
so let me burn in hell if loving you's a sin.
if you know what you want but still you have doubt,
you put one foot in and your already scheming your way out.
just dive in head first to the shallow end-
and let your body feel the hard floor.
bruised-
and bleeding-
from your head lieing there wanting more.
it'll warp the whole way you think.
bottle life up,
grit your teeth,
take a drink.
once you hear what i'm ranting about,
understand what i'm talking about,
it'll be such a pretty view.
all of the colors in the world.
i will show them to you.

Plain Rice

these slippery sidewalks
I've created.
"let me stay!"
sticky pavement
growing underneath the trees
"i just hate that place."
orange railroads
trailing side by side by side
empty mailbox
i guess I'm just along for the ride.
but it's kinda funny-
how in a few days it can all go away.
and in a few days
you're glad you couldn't stay.
and in a few days-
things could be this way.
i think you should know;
I'm afraid to sing in front of noisy crowds
or nosey people,
or, people with noses.
people sometimes look at me,
but they all say they have hands as well.
they wear pants as well,
they all dance as well.
and most don't hold my glance so well.
i figured it would all be the same.
icy breath on the window frame.
drip drop- drip drop. goes the icy rain.
i shiver and shiver in my chair.
and wish my hands weren't so empty,
and wish my arms weren't so bare,
i sing love songs in the shower
and laugh when i fall down
and i cover my face when i wake up.
but only when your around.
driving down those long roads my heart seemed heavy
my eyes seemed full
and it all spilled out because i let it all down and i opened up like i wouldn't think i would.
silly girl you drone on to much.
always about that silly little thing.
my face is wet but it's not the same
and my mouth is curved but,
in a flip-flop sort of way.
my torso- feel so light with you.
my naval- feels so odd with you.
twice have i died- bring me back to life.
Bring me, back to life.
show me- how to live like you.
teach me- to see the way you do.
let me- also help you too.
because when I'm alive I'm so alive.
i tend to fret about little things.
i feel a bit scared of what war this brings.
like before- there were many things.
seasons change, and so do the leaves.
so whats stopping you from stopping me?
and I'll just be here squirming in my seat.
until once again i can feel your heart beat.
but when i die again,
if i die again-
I'm not sure when I'll wake again,
if i wake again.
but your voice is like sugar.
and your words are like honey.
and i get all funny.
and my days are getting dreary
and my nights are getting older
and that silly little thing is tapping on my shoulder.
and i want to sing along.
with it's silly little song.
sing with me.
sing with me.
sing with me.

Just Happy

The darkness dances around my eye sores,
My days have shifted.
The concept of time now confuses me.
But its all dust under the table.
Spilt milk, I suppose.
I jump off cliffs and run through fires,
Yet still I watch the ground only inches in front of me.
Still I feel for my back and feel up my spine,
It’s still there.
I’m still here.
But my naval is gone already,
My chest has left as well.
Where have they gone?
When will they be back?
I don’t care in the slightest.
With them they have taken memories
Of a shady past,
Memories I wish to forget.
They have takes my sadness away,
My confusion,
My loneliness.
Until all the remains
is happiness.
And I’m just happy.
And its simple.
And it’s fun.
And I smile more,
Laugh more,
And I’m just..
happy.