Are you afraid of death aurora?

i was reminded today how fragile life is, how real it is. people aren't invincible. people die. which is a crazy thing to think about, especially in the society we live in today which is all about living forever. everybody wants to live forever! we have anti-aging cream and surgical procedures all covering up the inevitable. not prolonging, not posponing, just denying. the truth of the matter which of course is that you will die, in fact we are all sitting here, dieing slowly. it may take 80 years it may take 100 years or it may even take only 12, but the process is never ceasing.
i was asked the question weeks ago "are you afraid of death?" i said no. and i didn't think anyone should be. however i was afraid of not having enough time and leaving the ones i love and not being able to care for them, take care of them, blah blah blah, the usual stuff. but looking at it from another perceptive, fearing the death not of myself but of others. am i afraid of others around me dieing, loved ones of loved ones dieing and seeing them suffer, my own loved ones dieing and suffering myself. i didn't realize how afraid i am of that. there's an hourglass hovering over every one of us. I'm not afraid of mine running out, but theirs? terrified. but how selfish of me not to be afraid of my own, for if theirs runs out think of the suffering i would endure, would theirs not be the same? which also pains me to think about. how could i not fear making them suffer this as well? so i must be right?
a fear of "death" i believer, is similar to that of a fear of the "dark". what is scary about the dark? nothing. we create our own darkness when we close our eyes, in nature the night sky is black and dark. should it not be in our nature to welcome the dark? or at least be used to it? but this fear of the "dark" is more a fear of things in the darkness, the effects of what those things might do, harm you, take you, harm those around you and you won't be able to see, you'll be helpless. just as a fear of death. is death scary? no, a painful death maybe but that would be more a fear of pain rather death. after death you are still, maybe you go to heaven, maybe you reincarnate as a tree, a rock, a flower, maybe you simply decompose. you will feel nothing, no pain, no sadness, you will be free. dead, yes, but free from this devastating life we always complain about. why would you fear that? but fear of the effects of death, the effects on others when you die, the effects on you when they die, fear of time, fear of realization that the life you led wasn't what you wanted. so why not just throw all that together under the one name, the name of the thing that starts up all that ruckus itself? death. or perhaps we should just forget about this completely, as many people do. they ignore it, they don't like to talk about death. these are the people that use a nightlights when they're afraid of the dark. so completely afraid that they can't even bare to think of what might happen won't even admit that they are afraid, just denying it, just making sure that their life is so full of light at all times that maybe they can prevent darkness. maybe then they really won't be scared because there is nothing to be scared of. this is the mindset people have. but, one day you'll realize, as i have; you can't beat this.
so am i afraid of death? shit, i don't even know anymore. yes? no?
maybe I'll just use a nightlight.